Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in V-chan's LiveJournal:

Monday, May 17th, 2004
7:11 pm	HARO! I FEEL BETTER NOW! I was orientated for work today... it was ... bugjxcjomf o ... kinda like that. Im not sure if I'll like it or not, but here's to hoping! I feel better than I did during my last rant. I also went to another prom!... THE FRIDLEY PROM! Joy to that. Not still in love with my EX! Who needs your EX when you've got Casey? Although half the world is in love with him.... so? I'm special! Although I have no excuse to get to see him or talk to him and he doesn' check his email.... hm. I need to start making friends closer to home. Also, i learned that my friend my friend brian can be hot... hm... but kristin! We need to figure out when i can come visit you! ~V-face PS: Im kinda a bitch when I get worried about people Current Mood: nostalgic Current Music: Time of Your Life (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 12th, 2004
9:11 am	An Avril Lavigne Song is protecting my Virginity Um... Well, I really don't know where to begin. My situation is constantly changing. I don't know how to tell what's up and what's down right now. My happiness, my friendships, my accomplishemnts... they all seem so temporary, so shallow. I don't know... An Avril Lavinge song is standing between me and sluthood... just because I'm just that desperate to feel loved and needed... I start work soon. I'll be a waitress. Exciting. I get to go visit Kristin and the Kawaii Gemini this summer and I am so so excited about that. I miss the things I used to have.... last year... eveything was just so easy. And now... I dream every night about the way things used to be, when I actually sleep that is... lately I fall asleep on the couch watching TV that I don't like and drift in and out of consciousness... not sleep. I hate to sound so conceited... but I am a tragedy. I've got the pretty smile down to a T. No one would guess that I was sad. I think I am fat and ugly and kind of annoying, I'm a bit self conscious you see... I don't know what everyone else thinks. I don't know... I think sometimes, I think too much. Time is going so so so fast... I just want to stop and try to organize myself, but obviously I can't. I'm kinda losing sight of my dreams... it gets hard when everyone tells you you'll never make it... but I will. I have to! I'm gonna try to be on a positive note right now... I made up my mind about some more cosplay. I want to cosplay young Vash and Knives with Kaylene, funny, becuase the night I decided this, I had said that I never wanted to cosplay Vash. How ironic. Yes, that is a good word for life right now, ironic. I'm not as elequent as Shelby in my bitching, so it sounds like just that: bitching. I went out during the storm this weekend and screamed my lungs out. It hurt. It sorta helped, but only when I really flailed around a lot. And... yea. Friends with benifits... yuck! What am I even thinking? Maybe I really am a librarian... like he says... DAMN EXBOYFRIENDS! I CAN'T GET HIM OUT OF MY HEAD! I SHOULD HAVE NEVER STARTED TALKING TO HIM AGAIN! HE FEELS NOTHING! HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND THE EMOTIONAL ISSUES OF ANYTHING BECAUSE HE JUST IGNORES THEM! HE THINK EVERYONE CAN LIVE NO STRINGS ATTATCHED! And sometime I wish I could. Dammit. On a lighter note, Warlock is a damn good movie... because the guys in it are damn hot... and... they have fun 80's effect and an Utena-esque kiss scene! HEY HEY HEY HEY! OOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WOAH! DON'T YOU FORGET ABOUT ME! (good song) WOrking on another fandub right now... that makes me happy. I wanna find out more about this other one: Magical Girl Do Re Mi, the movie before I actually buy it. So... uh. I guess i feel better after bitching all of that out. hopefully my next entry won't be all psycho depressy! Current Music: I'm With You (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 23rd, 2003
9:42 pm	LEAVING SOON! Going to New York for a couple weeks... YAY! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 22nd, 2003
1:11 pm	On the bright side, I am now the exgirlfriend of a Sociopath... Well, i recently broky up with my boifriend and since i missed him kinda, one of my friends told me to call him. After much convincing, I did... only to discover that he was a self-centered, uncaring, sadist, masochist, sociopath who lies and uses deceit for personal gain. I also learned that I was the closest he's ever come to caring about someone, so YAY! If I can get someone like that to love me for just a little bit then I must be talented... also... this is just my first boifriend... imagine what my husband will be like!!! I really know how to pick 'em... i dunno... it helps to know that he still cared.. if even just a little... because he helped me let go... i've decided to mourn him like he was dead... because the part of him i loved and the part of him that loved me was a mask... a mask which has been discarded by him and i will probably never see again... so, he died! I saw many parts of him, a tough guy, a sweetheart, and someone who loved me.. which was real? I don't care... they were all just matt... Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: She has a girlfriend now (Comment on this)